In Middle and High School I was the thin but curvy girl who was active but never into sports. I enjoyed exercise. I loved how I felt, how it made me look, and how I could eat what I wanted without gaining a pound. I had an active and healthy metabolism. My life on the other hand was not so healthy. My home life was a struggle, a total roller coaster. My step father was very verbally abusive and sadly once you hear things over, an over again you start to believe your self- worth isn’t what u thought it to be. As years went by I struggled with who I really was and sadly the activity slowly stopped and food become my comfort. By my senior year in High School I had reversed my metabolism and sank into a deeper depression. I covered this up by being the life of the party, the funny girl, and FOOD. Before I knew it I was no longer active to the point I was sedentary all the while still consuming whatever I felt I deserved to eat.
With High School behind me one year later in 2000 I married my soulmate and best friend Casey. I’m the luckiest girl in the world to still be his. Our honeymoon and first years were all about making each other happy. Well at that time in my life HAPPY was FOOD and FOOD was HAPPY. By 2004 I climbed to my all-time high of 254 pounds. I’m 5’6”, I was right at 120 pounds over-weight. EKKK!!!!! The funny thing is I had no idea it was that bad. I was so unhappy with myself I never took a good look at myself, never paid attention to the sizes going in the closet, never saw me, and I felt invisible to everyone else. Depression really makes you blind and can give you a false happiness.
At that point in my life I started “Yo-Yo” dieting. I’d lose a little then gain a lot back. I waged havoc on my body not to mention my poor hormones. I had already been diagnosed with Hypo Thyroid at the age of 18 and now at 24 doing even more damage. I just didn’t know how or what to do, I felt trapped.
By March 2009 after losing and gaining and losing again I started gaining, creeping back up to my old heaviest weight. I was at 225... By this time we had, had our daughter Kayla (born 2005) and now here I was going down the same road again but now I had someone to set an example for. My daughter!!! I wanted her to be healthy, active, and fit. How could I ask for that when I’m doing the complete opposite? Can’t!
This is where the nerd in me kicked in. I started researching… A lot. I went through a typical day for me and was shocked to discover I was consuming 4,000 to 5,000 calories DAILY. Yep! For those of you who don’t know yet that’s way, way, WAY more than I needed, try double it. I was totally ashamed of what I was doing to my body and from that day on my life changed forever. I stopped worrying about how to drop pounds and started educating myself on overall health and wellness. Of course I wanted to lose weight but I knew if I changed my lifestyle I’d have the ENERGY to do it.
I cut portions, began eating more meals daily, and even paid closer attention to calorie intake. Now with calories I learned it’s not about just the number, it’s more about the right balance between fat, proteins, and carbs that make up that total number. I was and still fascinated by the science behind a healthy lifestyle. Our bodies are amazing and I realized in my research, bodies are uniquely different but in some ways very similar.
Eight months after turning to a healthy lifestyle, I was down 76 pounds. Yayy!! I knew I needed and wanted more ENERGY and to do that I needed more muscle mass. I began to go to a Personal Trainer/friend of mine twice a week in combination with a home cardio regimen. I loved it! I had more ENERGY before I knew and as my husband would say “I was erasing myself”. I was blown away with the results I was getting and I was having FUN doing it. I understood then muscle mass + balanced clean healthy nutrition = ENERGY & RESULTS. I love the statement; “Once you see results you become addicted”, it’s so true.
In 2012 after training with my friend for 3 years, I was down 96 pounds. Crazy to think about it and even to type it to this day. I wasn’t proud of myself, not happy about myself at all. See if you remember back to the whole unhappiness and depression thing, it was still there. I still struggled with being me, I was angry I’d let myself go in the first place, I was lost inside, and covered it up now even better than before. I had found something I was truly passionate about and I was ashamed to share it. I was now even more insecure, self-conscious, and I felt like everyone had me under a microscope. My questioning my self-worth got in the way of everything. My trainer/friend would say things to me like, “you should consider becoming a personal trainer” and “you love this why not do it to help others” and “you really need to share your story”. I would laugh and agree but inside I was telling myself “yeah right”, I thought there’s no way I could do that and what would people think if I did, no one would take me seriously. Now I owe a ton to my trainer/friend because he saw something in me I couldn’t at the time. Thankful he was persistent and eventually I began to share my story and became more confident in myself. I got into counseling and really worked on how I saw myself and my enter self-worth. This period was one of the most important times in my life but it was the hardest. The outcome was well worth the struggle. I found myself, improved my marriage, improved my relationship with my daughter, and I know now what I truly wanted.
I began studying to get certificated in Personal Trainings with ISSA. Not long into my studies ENERGY by Michelle went from a dream to a reality. I had found a place and was rockin-n-rollin on my prep for my exam. Then something changed, I wasn’t feeling good and had no more ENERGY. What? I tried everything I knew to do to help it and nothing. My positive thinking became a negative Nancy. How can I tell someone to do something if I can’t even do it myself? Ugh!! After a few months of self-pity, I put my big girl panties back on. I found a hormone specialist and found out I had PCOS in other words I was a hormone head case. Ovaries not working and sluggish adrenal glands and then of course thyroid issues already. Luckily it didn’t take long to get back on track and feeling 100% better. Passed the Exam with flying colors. The nerd in me loved the whole process because again the science behind what makes us tick is amazing.
January 2015 I official opened ENERGY by Michelle. The pride I have for this is truly humbling. My Lord and Savior has blessed me with so much and I’m so thankful I didn’t put this gift under the rug for safe keeping. My story is so much more than a weight loss journey, it was finding who I am and what I was put on this beautiful earth to do. I am so proud of all I have accomplished, the lessons I’ve learned along the way and most importantly I love who am and the person I’ve become.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20
"Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own, you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies."
I’ve heard this my whole life and now I understand it more than ever. We live in a world full of obstacles and temptations. It’s not about the best and fastest diet because there isn’t one. It’s about life changes, diets are only temporary. We must honor our bodies permanently. This is my calling to help others accomplish this very goal. This is my passion to show others it can become a reality. My gift is to spread my ENERGY. I believe everyone has it in them but it’s my gift to help you bring it out.